I have thought so much about this. How can it be that I know Who I am but don’t remember? Why am I not starting to remember (or am I?). And what part will I remember first? Or will it be all at once?
The only question I have an answer for is how. This isn’t “Oh, that’s okay, I know you didn’t mean to embezzle my savings/start a war/drop a plane on civilians/blow up the Pentagon” kind of forgiveness. This is the “How can I be mad at you for something you did in a dream?” kind of forgiveness.
Since we’re not reading the Text concurrent with the lessons, I have to tell you that Course forgiveness is more like what Ramtha would call “letting go.” There’s no emotional charge on what a lousy job your parents did raising you, and not just because you know they did their best and you needed the hard knocks, but because they’re just characters in your dream, designed by ego to keep your knickers in a twist so it can continue to ‘exist.’ There’s no emotional charge on anything. Because you know there isn’t anything there.
I know this kind of forgiveness is difficult when it seems like you’re living with the effects of a very bad dream. But not only does being mad at it do nothing to change the effect, it doesn’t remove the cause. Forgiveness does. It acknowledges that either ego gets to have the dream or you get to go Home, but not both, and ego is no longer worth the price. It acknowledges that the cause is in your court and you refuse to play any longer. It says that no matter how many apparent nightmares (and tantrums) ego may throw, you’re waiting in line for a ticket Home, the train will be here any second, you’re not wasting time on that sort of thing, end of story.
We’ll get into forgiveness much more as we go along, but at least you have a place to start. And the Course and I both promise you, you’re going to like the results. Remember Pursah’s forgiveness example. In fact, memorize it for emergencies. Having something to recite is a great distraction when ego would rather throw things: “You’re not really there. If I think you are guilty or the cause of the problem, and if I made you up, then the imagined guilt and fear must be in me. Since the separation from God never occurred, I forgive ‘both’ of us for what we haven’t really done. Now there is only innocence, and I join with the Holy Spirit in peace.” Lesson 62.