The worst part about going through my “dark days” was knowing what kind of thoughts I was putting out. I had spent years in joyous meditation and conscious manifestation, and then I slid into a chemically imbalanced medical crisis that left me near death. I wanted to die. Yet in those moments I was acutely aware of the poison flowing from those thoughts into my future. I suppose the unfolding of all I’d focused on in prior years saved my life. I manifested survival for myself.
For many months now my go-to mantra has been “Be Thou My Vision.” I whisper it when I sit down to write, I start my focus with it, I say it on my walks, I find myself muttering it in my sleep. (That’s Ramtha’s training, that is!) Above all else, I want to see. I still do. But I’m consciously changing my plea to a claim: “I am as God created me.” “He [the Son] will save the world, because he gives the world what he receives each time he practices the words of truth,” says our review of lesson 162. I want to give that to a world that didn’t give up on me when I couldn’t do that for myself. Mostly I want to spare everyone I can from even one of their own dark days. “And those who live and hear this sound will never look on death.”
Some days I don’t think I can pull this off, the whole ascension thing. Other days I deeply feel an ability to save my brothers, save us all. I’m sure you’ve felt it too. The Truth of course is somewhere in between, yet at Home in Heaven, always was, and the wall in between is so thin that we touch both worlds at once. I send Light on ahead to lead us, and I’ll meet you There. Lesson 176.