“I will turn away no longer from the holy face of Christ.”

I must have been an unusual child. (I heard that, Maya!) Whenever we went to visit my grandmother, I was allowed to go into her dressing room–alone–and “play” at her dressing table. I opened all the makeup, lipsticks, jewelry pouches, boxes and perfumes. I would take out everything and put it back exactly, so I would be allowed to play again next time.  As an adult, of course, I found an antique dressing table, which now holds my grandmother’s English lamps, some of her jewelry, even her satin lingerie bags.  And I can’t imagine letting any child I’ve ever known near it, so maybe Grandma June was the unusual one.

Work with Ramtha, at Ramtha’s School of Enlightenment, is a lot of “work.”  He introduces many different types of disciplines, all designed to wear down the busy, socially conscious mind and take us to our center.  One evening he sent us home from a lecture with instructions to light a candle in front of a mirror and look into our own eyes.  And no matter what things we “saw” reflected from behind us, not to take our eyes off our own eyes.  He said we would see and understand our own journey, our own future, our own Work.  I went home to my beautiful dressing table, eager to divine my own future.

I was going to say that I’m not a “phenomena” -type person.  That those things don’t happen to me.  And then I thought, well, maybe they do, but I just take them in stride.  (Doesn’t everybody have a spontaneous out-of-body experience in a movie theater?  I’ll tell you that one someday.) What I “saw” float into my mirror was my long-gone mother over my left shoulder, and my even longer-gone father over my right.  I hadn’t seen them together in 30 years.  Fighting to keep my eyes locked on my own eyes, I even saw Grandma June appear behind my mom.  Then they were gone, and I wondered what my ancestry had to do with my future?

Of course, I finally “got” that this was Ramtha’s convoluted way of showing me the holy face of Christ, MY face, no one else’s face.  That Christ Consciousness was my journey, my future, my Work.  Go within.  What else are you going to see in a “mirror”?  I didn’t know that what I was seeking was my own Identity.  “What I look upon attests the truth of the Identity I sought to lose, but which my Father has kept safe for me.”  I said to Suzi the other day that if what I needed in this illusion, in order to learn, was for a space ship to land in my front yard, then Holy Spirit would arrange one, because nothing is happening outside of me anyway. It’s only ever about our ancestry, the holy Love Child we have always been in the Mind of Father Love.  Lesson 229.